Relationship are soo complited! =/

Ugh! I am like a hopeless romantic. I'm always falling for someone; its a rare occasion when I dont have a crush on someone. But I have like many kinds of crushes. For example, I have a crush on a guy because I just kinda of like him because he's cute and nice (meaning I've actually met him), there's the kind where I actually like a guy because he's cute and I like his personality and stuff (but those are the kind that change all the time), and there are two kinds that are less frivilous, I guess you could say, where I meet a guy and I think that he is really nice and then I look at his future possibilities and I see some qualities I look for (see "My Future Husband" blog) and I start really liking him, but with those kinds of crushes I find after a while some characteristic that makes a relationship impossible. But then there are those guys that I look at over and over and I think I've considered it enough to the point where I can seriously consider him for future possibilities (and all this can happen before I've even told the guy I like him at all). In these cases, I have only found about 3 guys that I have ever truly considered (and recently I've almost completely disqualified my 3 option) but then something always seems to be wrong with them or the situation that wouldnt allow it to work (at least not that I can see now). And this is just soo frustrating, because I'm always looking for that right guy (and yes I know, I'm only 16 I dont need to be thinking about all these things, but I do, I just cant help myself) and the guys always end up disappointing me. I just wish I could have some idea of who I'm gonna marry. Like if I've met him yet, is he going to be white/black? tall/short? anything/something! But thats not how God works, which is just annoying because that just leaves me to hopelessly search for the right guy, being disappointed countless times. When will the carade end??

Thanks for reading

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~

Life's Rough...And?

Every year, every month, every week, every day, every hour, minute, even second people all over the world are hurting. Someone's hurting about one thing another is hurting about something different. But the fact is, we all have problems, we all have pain, we all go through countless adversities thoughout our lives. This world is just filled with people with issues, and these issues range from countless varieties. And we walk by these people everyday. At school, on the street, at church, at home, everywhere. But you cant always tell the people that have issues. Sometimes the people with the worst problems have the most pleasant happy exterior. They are the people with the amazing jobs, the people with tons of friends, the people with beauty, power, money, the people who look the least likely to have any issues. But the truth is we dont know. Not untill we find out for ourselves. But as I've already said, the world is full of people with pain, and we cant know everyone.
So what do we do? We go everyday and pass countless people with pain and struggles that we dont have the slightest clue about. We cant just sit down with every person and ask them about their problems. Well I'll tell you what you can do. You can just take advantage of every opportunity you do have to reach out to the people you already know. Pretty much everyone has friends right? And we normally talk to our friends on a regular basis right? Well when you talk to your friends listen to what they say, but I mean really listen. You may hear things you normally miss. Sometimes your friends may mention a problem they are facing, or an issue their going through, but you may not hear that or may just not want to deal with their problems. Maybe you have your own problems, or you just dont want to have to get involved with their issues. But you never know that issue really goes. Sometimes when a person is going through some really hard times all they need is someone to care and someone to listen to them. Just doing that can sometimes make all the difference.
People who can look past their own adversities, and problems they may be facing themselves, and are able to just set that aside to reach out to someone else in desparate need of a friend is an extremely remarkable person. Sometimes people are just so absorbed in their own issues that they forget to care about other's problmes. But the people who can be carrying the world on their shoulders but turn around to care about someone else and seek to comfort and aid them in their situation, that is the mark of a true hero. If there were more people like that in this world, people who cared about others more than themselves, this world would be a much much better place.
So the next time you are talking to someone, and you can tell that they are going through some problems; dont just ignore it and act like you didnt hear that. Put aside your own problems for a few minutes and take some time to reach out to someone else who may be in pain as well.
How do you change the world? One person at a time....

Thanks for reading =)

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~

Boys...UGH!

Ok, the only reason I'm writting this is because i know im not the only girl who feels this way. And who knows maybe there are some guys who feel this way too.

Well, as for me, i know that i am a hopeless romantic. Im always getting crushes on guys. Most of them are never serious enough for me to actually do anything about it, but still. But part of being little crushes is they are usually mumerous. And they end for one reason or another. And it is just soo frustrating sometimes. Like after you like someone, and then it ends your like, "What on earth did i see in him?" And sometimes it just gets soo frustrating.

And so as a result, sometimes we think, "You know forget boys im just going to be perfectly content with being single. Im not going to crush on any guys. Im not gonna think about them all the time, its just going to be me, my girls, and God." But then..dun dun dun duuuuh..here comes a boy who is so cute or nice or funny or whatever you like about him. And against your inistincts you start liking him. And what would make it worse is if he acted like he likes you too. (Notice i sed "acted" which implies not neccesarily he does) And then you spend the next few days, weeks, months, however long it is, just thinking about him, day-dreaming and what-not. But then BAMS! something happens and now all of a sudden, you dont like him anymore. Maybe he did something or you did something, and your mad at him or your embarrassed or something like that, and now, lskjdflas, the crush is no more. And your left feeling disapointed and frustrated at the fact that you fell for antother guy, and just like all the rest, it went sour like 20 warheads shoved in your mouth at once. Yah i know. And know you think to yourself, "UGH! Why the heck did i do that, i knew this was going to happen"

And then you re-dedicate that your going to be content with being single and what-not. But in the back of your head your thinking, "Yeah right" And then you just go on with your life waiting for you to do it all over again.

Now i know some of you may have a little different scenario or feel differently. But still if some of you read this and are just thinking, "Mmmmh, i know thats right" "Amen sister" "You said it" "I KNOW!" just feel free to comment and say that. Cause i'll feel a little better about posting this if i know im not the only one who goes through this kinda stuff. lol

Thanks for reading

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~