Writing saves me

If i didn't have the ability to write I don't know where i'd be right now. Maybe I would be dead, because i have never had any one in my life that i can talk to and vent all my emotions to (and believe me, i have ALOT) and thats a real problem for me because i really need that, badly. So i feel the only way that i can get out all these emotions that i have bottled up inside me is to write them out. And thankfully God has blessed me with this gift and talent and desire to write. And this has really helped me my whole life because i find that as i write out my emotions, then by the time i'm half way finished or by the time i'm done i just feel so much better and calmer, and its like i can actually breathe. It has really been a life saver for me. Because i have so many emotions and so many problems and things that could just get me so depressed and put me into a really dark place that writing is just a way that i'm able to get out all my "demons" in a sense. But when i do find someone i can talk to who is willing to listen to my constant problems and comfort me and stuff (which is really mainly what i need) it will definately surpass anything my writting could do for me. Because people can talk back to you and give you advice and comfort you and wrap their arms around you.

However, though it has taken me a long long time to really grasp this conept, God really can help you as well, when you are in those dark places. Because God's comfort and peace can surpass anything anyone or anything could ever do for you, because everyone in the world has a God-sized whole in their heart that only He can fill, and once i realized that, i was able to allow God to be that comforter to me. And so God was another major factor in my survival. My writing was just a path that would allow me to reach a state of saneness that i could really look at my situation and be calm enough and rational enough to go to God for help. And i just can't thank God enough for all he has done for me over the whole course of my life. He has brought me through so many tramatic and hard times in my life and brought me to be such a completely better person, now i still have a lot of growing left to do but i'm so much better than i was. And that has really been very valuble to me and i really do believe that God is going to use these experiences that i have had to go through and allow me to share my testimony with other people who have experienced similar things. Because God has a special plan for each and every person's life thats on this earth. It's just a matter of us becoming the person that God wants us to be to be able to reach that potential. And i just can wait to see what God is going to do with my life.

Thanks for reading

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~

People!

People...the world is full of them. They walk around this vast land in search of...various different things (although most of them useless and futile). And as people live their live ignoring the possible signifacence of the person standing next to them or the person across the room. People do whatever they want because of the sorry excuse of "Hey it’s my life!" when people don’t even have the slightest clue that no matter who you are, no matter how lame, "cool", popular, stupid, retarded, rejected, demented, whatever the things you do, the choices you make, the things you say, the people you hang out with, the way you treat people, everything and anything. Can unknowingly affect anyone who comes to witness of your vain actoins that you believe are insignificant when they can be more significant that you will ever realize.

The world needs to wake up and realize that their lives are not their own, no matter how insignificant they think they are, one simple action can have life long lasting affects of some inocent spectator of your pitiful existence you call a life. A simple action can change a person’s life from "got everything going for ’em" to "a one way ticket to no where." And what’s even more sad is that, PEOPLE DON"T CARE. I mean what kind of heartless, cold, jerk do have to be when you don’t care about the potentially destructive affect you may have on another person’s life. Especially if that person is someone close to you.

And furthermore, the more "important" you are in society the bigger an effect you have on the general public. And the worst part sometimes their the worst of us all. And so a slight miscalculation of a decision can trasform someones life into a hell whole. If you ask me this whole entire world needs a HUGE wake up call, and quick before we’re all spiralling down a dark pit of destruction.

Thanks for reading

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~

Life's Rough...And?

Every year, every month, every week, every day, every hour, minute, even second people all over the world are hurting. Someone's hurting about one thing another is hurting about something different. But the fact is, we all have problems, we all have pain, we all go through countless adversities thoughout our lives. This world is just filled with people with issues, and these issues range from countless varieties. And we walk by these people everyday. At school, on the street, at church, at home, everywhere. But you cant always tell the people that have issues. Sometimes the people with the worst problems have the most pleasant happy exterior. They are the people with the amazing jobs, the people with tons of friends, the people with beauty, power, money, the people who look the least likely to have any issues. But the truth is we dont know. Not untill we find out for ourselves. But as I've already said, the world is full of people with pain, and we cant know everyone.
So what do we do? We go everyday and pass countless people with pain and struggles that we dont have the slightest clue about. We cant just sit down with every person and ask them about their problems. Well I'll tell you what you can do. You can just take advantage of every opportunity you do have to reach out to the people you already know. Pretty much everyone has friends right? And we normally talk to our friends on a regular basis right? Well when you talk to your friends listen to what they say, but I mean really listen. You may hear things you normally miss. Sometimes your friends may mention a problem they are facing, or an issue their going through, but you may not hear that or may just not want to deal with their problems. Maybe you have your own problems, or you just dont want to have to get involved with their issues. But you never know that issue really goes. Sometimes when a person is going through some really hard times all they need is someone to care and someone to listen to them. Just doing that can sometimes make all the difference.
People who can look past their own adversities, and problems they may be facing themselves, and are able to just set that aside to reach out to someone else in desparate need of a friend is an extremely remarkable person. Sometimes people are just so absorbed in their own issues that they forget to care about other's problmes. But the people who can be carrying the world on their shoulders but turn around to care about someone else and seek to comfort and aid them in their situation, that is the mark of a true hero. If there were more people like that in this world, people who cared about others more than themselves, this world would be a much much better place.
So the next time you are talking to someone, and you can tell that they are going through some problems; dont just ignore it and act like you didnt hear that. Put aside your own problems for a few minutes and take some time to reach out to someone else who may be in pain as well.
How do you change the world? One person at a time....

Thanks for reading =)

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~

Boys...UGH!

Ok, the only reason I'm writting this is because i know im not the only girl who feels this way. And who knows maybe there are some guys who feel this way too.

Well, as for me, i know that i am a hopeless romantic. Im always getting crushes on guys. Most of them are never serious enough for me to actually do anything about it, but still. But part of being little crushes is they are usually mumerous. And they end for one reason or another. And it is just soo frustrating sometimes. Like after you like someone, and then it ends your like, "What on earth did i see in him?" And sometimes it just gets soo frustrating.

And so as a result, sometimes we think, "You know forget boys im just going to be perfectly content with being single. Im not going to crush on any guys. Im not gonna think about them all the time, its just going to be me, my girls, and God." But then..dun dun dun duuuuh..here comes a boy who is so cute or nice or funny or whatever you like about him. And against your inistincts you start liking him. And what would make it worse is if he acted like he likes you too. (Notice i sed "acted" which implies not neccesarily he does) And then you spend the next few days, weeks, months, however long it is, just thinking about him, day-dreaming and what-not. But then BAMS! something happens and now all of a sudden, you dont like him anymore. Maybe he did something or you did something, and your mad at him or your embarrassed or something like that, and now, lskjdflas, the crush is no more. And your left feeling disapointed and frustrated at the fact that you fell for antother guy, and just like all the rest, it went sour like 20 warheads shoved in your mouth at once. Yah i know. And know you think to yourself, "UGH! Why the heck did i do that, i knew this was going to happen"

And then you re-dedicate that your going to be content with being single and what-not. But in the back of your head your thinking, "Yeah right" And then you just go on with your life waiting for you to do it all over again.

Now i know some of you may have a little different scenario or feel differently. But still if some of you read this and are just thinking, "Mmmmh, i know thats right" "Amen sister" "You said it" "I KNOW!" just feel free to comment and say that. Cause i'll feel a little better about posting this if i know im not the only one who goes through this kinda stuff. lol

Thanks for reading

Sincerely,

~MyEssence~